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 To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait"
To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful.

To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her.

To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down.

To every guy who has given her flowers just because thats how he rolls.

To every guy that said he would die for her.

To every guy that really would.

To every guy that did what she wanted to do.

To every guy that cried in front of her. ....
To every guy that she cried in front of...
To every guy that holds hands with her.

To every guy that kisses her with meaning.

To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.

To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.

To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.

To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.

To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten
To every guy that would give his seat up...
To every guy that just wants to cuddle.

To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what.

To every guy who told his secrets to her.

To every guy that tried to show how much he cared through every word and
every breath.

To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.

To every guy that believed in her dreams.

To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them.

To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams.

To every guy that walked her to her car and opened the door.

To every guy that gave his heart.

To every guy who prays that she is happy even if you are not with her.

Not many girls appreciate nice guys anymore...

And because of this, there are not many left out there...

I guarantee 90% of the men on your page will not repost this cuz they care more about their image

If you are a nice guy repost this with:
"This is how every girl should be treated.


If you are a girl that thinks every guy should treat a girl this way
repost this with: "i want this guy!"..
20 February 2008 @ 11:47 pm
i feel lost.
Current Location: the living room.
Current Mood: frustratedfrustrated
Current Music: journey
17 February 2008 @ 01:02 pm

last night was crazy. hahahaha. i love my friends. they've helped me out through alot, and they're all awesome for supporting my decisions and being there for me and stuff. thats why i hang out with my best friends just about everyday lol. omg i went to sleep at like 5 this morning, i was up sick, lol...damn, that hasnt happened for a while! drank way too much, then i got up at 8 and went to church, still drunk, which is terrible. my parents are out of town for the day so i'm just hanging out at the house. but i need to take nap before work or i'ma be suffering!!!!!!

Current Location: on the couch
Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: disturbed
07 February 2008 @ 02:16 pm
last night, i made one of those spur of the moment decisions, and i dont regret it at all. up and left with one of my friends in the middle of the night to daytona. i dont regret it, i actually felt alot better. i brought my journal (of course), so i figure i'll post what i wrote. ok, here it goes.

the sand feels nice underneath me. its been a while since i've seen the beach. i have my phone on silent, not answering calls or texts. i just wanna be. riding in the passengers seat of my friends car on my way here, i thought about alot of things. from the little stuff - like wondering if i should get my nails filled or just let them grow out, or if i like the smell of this new shampoo i switched to, whether or not i should roll my window up so my hair doesnt get destroyed, or leave it down to feel the air in my face (i left it down - screw my hair). then theres the bigger, and more important issues - my family; especially dad, school, my relationship. life is a roller coaster for me, and my emotions take that ride most of the time. tonight was spur of the moment, after the huge incident at work, i knew i had to do something before i snapped. so, i texted my friend. my friend wanted to go to daytona too. i dont think we spoke 5 words the whole way here. some people can just tell if you want to talk or not. obviously i didnt. i'm writing this on paper now, but i know when i get home, i'll just transfer it to my online journal. i wonder what time it is. i dont want to look. why do i sometimes get the stupidest things on my mind? like, why does everything has to have a point? why cant i do something just because i like it? such as painting. when is the last time i actually sat down and painted on canvas? when have i had the time to do that...or drawn a picture of something i like, instead of the stupid stuff my art teacher makes me draw? when was the last time i went out and did something fun with my boyfriend? hmmm. i dont remember. those things make me happy. how often does it seem like they happen? lately i've been feeling like my writing doesnt make sense, and maybe it doesnt. its because i'm a confused person. ok, lets get on the topic of my relationship. i love steven, i want to be with him, but why do i feel like i cant? when we're together, everything is great, we're happy. but, that rarely happens anymore. now, he could throw my own words back in my face, and tell me that its not about how much time we spend together. but right now, for me, it is. i need someone who can and will be there for me at all times, my emotions are in a fragile state. maybe it'll eliminate some of his stress if he isnt with me anyway...it sucks thinking that you're losing that person you really believe is the one you're meant to be with forever. i feel like i cant do it. sad, but true. i got in a huge fight with my brother at work. now i dont want to ever go back there again. i hate it when people try to belittle me by yelling at me. i dont handle being yelled at very well at all. i cry every time. and every time someone yells at me, i picture jordans face, and how i felt when he did it, and all the years i put up with it. so in my time sitting here in the sand, i've decided that i have to be perfect, that my brother pisses me off, and that i seriously am thinking about breaking up with steven, not because i want to though, and even though i know i'll be really miserable without him. i'm not thinking straight. scratch everything i just said......                                                    .....the end.

and, i probably wasnt thinking straight. because i'm not leaving steven, he makes me happy and i love him. why should i let a good thing go? my emotions are just very (excuse my language) fucked up right now. i know that and he knows that, and hopefully he'll just work with me here. oh, and i;ve invested in something valuable, tylenol pm. yes, i will finally sleep at night again. i need that shit, everyone knows i dont sleep. and right now, i am soooo tired. got home about 4, woke up at 8, to pick kelsey up because we had a video visitation thing with brittanie this morning. she cried, i felt so bad, i cried with her. then we went back to her house, i went to school just to find out that class was cancelled, stopped by the art store, sat at the pond at the end of my street for a while, and now here i am. getting ready to go to work, with my brother. great.
Current Location: my couch
Current Mood: stressedstressed
Current Music: snow patrol
05 February 2008 @ 01:57 am

".......the eyes are the window to your soul. if a person asks you "whats wrong?", and every time, you reply "nothing", can they really see the truth? should they believe your words, or your eyes? at the same time, looks can be deceiving. follow your heart. if you love someone, tell them. let them see it in your eyes. when you kiss them, do it with the passion you would if you thought it was the last time you were ever going to see them again. i think i'm a hopeless romantic."

i hate to get too personal in this thing sometimes, but i'm at that breaking point right now. its like...all the stress and things that i've just been trying to "brush off", yeah. it isnt going away. like today (monday), my dad got a call from one of his doctors, something came back in one of the tests they ran on his blood. he has to go in on wednesday to sit down and talk about it with the doctor. bad part about it is, my parents dont want to tell me until after they've talked to the doctor about what's going to happen and what they're going to do, etc. they're leaving me in the dark. i didnt even tell anyone about that. maybe i just didnt want to talk about it, or maybe i thought noone would listen. this could be the reason i feel like i'm alone in most things, i dont talk to people about stuff. go figure. oh well.

anyways, i'm trying to figure out what to get steven for valentines day. girls are so easy, its like just get them a stuffed animal and flowers or some kinda jewelry and you're good. but guys....oh my goodness. and of course my friends are no help lol. i still have a week and a half to come up with something lol.

well i think i'ma make it an early night, it's almost 2 and i'm getting up at 8:30 to meet nancie before class.

oh! and go on the other journal (tsunamijn) that i wrote about in my last entry! i made my first voice entry a while ago! lol!

Current Mood: lonelylonely
Current Music: nickelback
24 January 2008 @ 10:31 pm
awwww, i found an old email steven wrote me from a few weeks ago. just, awww. it was long...lol. wish i knew what happened to that guy. i wonder if i'll ever get another one like that.....
Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
19 January 2008 @ 01:04 pm

sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there. to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become. you never know who these people may be but when you lock eyes with them, you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way. and sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, will power or heart. everything happens for a reason. nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere, safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless. the people you meet affect your life. the successes and downfalls that you experience can create who you are, and the bad experiences can be learned from. in fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones. if someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them because they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart. if someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and to open your heart and eyes to little things. make every day count. appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again. talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen. let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high. hold your head up because you have every right to. tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you (but God will always believe in you). create your own life and then go out and live it. if you take your eyes off your goals, all you see are obstacles.